Uyise wasweleka, umama wesibini wohlutha incwadi yokupasa, intombi ayinakuzinceda, ithengisa ifenitshala, oomatrasi basentwasahlobo, SOB

Igama lam ndingu Zhang li, abantu basemaphandleni, ngoku basebenza esixekweni, iimeko zethu zasekhaya ngokubanzi ekhaya, nangona ndifunda iziphumo zilungile, kodwa ngenxa yezizathu ezithile, ndakhetha ukuyeka isikolo. Umama wasweleka xa ndandiqala, ndandikunye notata ndandicinga ukuba nam ndinokuba nabantu ababini, ubomi obukrakra nje obuncinane, ndenza kakubi, kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba nje ixesha lokundinika ixesha, konke oku kuya kutshintsha. Lo confidence kuthiwa yi blind self-confidence, inoba utata akacingi ukuba angandihoya kakuhle, nam andiziboni ndingamhoya kakuhle, umatshisi welali amncede afumane umfazi. Emva kokutshata, utata uyasebenza, emva koko, oku akufanelanga ukuba ngabafazi babo, omnye umntu akayi kukunyamezela ukuba uhluphekile. Kwakhona emva komzi kayise ndiye ndafumana unyaka wesikolo, kuba umama wesibini nangona engakhawulezi kakhulu, konke ok ebusweni, kodwa abantu ababini bayavana nabo bonke abayihambi intliziyo, iyenza intliziyo yam ibe buhlungu kakhulu, ungathandi ubomi obunjalo, kwaye uthwala utata uyeka isikolo. Emva kokuyeka isikolo, oko utatakhe esazi ukuba andinasizathu kum, ndiyazi nam le nto ndiyenza kakubi, andihambi ndiyokumcaphukisa. Ngoko ke yayisele ivaliwe iminyaka emibini. Kwiminyaka emibini emva koko, ndinayo nemali esandleni, umlinganiswa isibindi sokubona utata. Utata wandibona, kwaye naye sele echiphiza iinyembezi ekoneni, uWalk wandinika imali yepokotho. Ngelo xesha ndandixhelekile, kamva qho ngeempelaveki, ugqiba ukutya esisiwa kubawo, ngoko iimvakalelo zethu uxolelwaniso. Kodwa ngelishwa, umzimba kayise wexesha lomsebenzi wesiza utshisiwe, wagoduka ngenxa yokugula, iziphumo zasweleka iminyaka embalwa. Ifundeke into yokusweleka kukayise xa ndibuya ekhaya ndikhawuleze ndakhwela iteksi, umama wesibini sele ehambile wapakisha imithwalo yam, wathatha incwadi yebhanki kayise. Intliziyo yam ibuhlungu kakhulu, ingcwatywe emva koyise ekhaya elungele ukubeka impahla yokuthengisa nantoni na ekhaya, ukuze ndiphephe ukophuka, yabona imeko enje, kufuneka ndibe sekhaya kakhulu. Kodwa ndivula oomatrasi basentwasahlobo, SOB. Utata ufihle imvulophu phantsi komandlalo wespring, lo ungentla wafunda amagama amabini athi 'ikhazi' ndivula kwi-card yebhanki, ingakanani imali endingayaziyo, kodwa ngutata wasebenza nzima ukundigcinela, emva koko ndakhala inyembezi, ndivakalelwa kukuba kukho into engalunganga, ndingafuni ukuthenga umoya kunye naye, edolophini, ubomi bufutshane, wonke umntu ube yintsapho ye-probability, nditsho ixesha elincinane, Wonke umntu ingxubusho phambi komtshato, kwakhona kuqwalaselwe phambi kokuba baphinde batshate, nokuba, kubantwana, abakwazi ukunyamezela ubunzima, ucinga ukuba uqhawulo-mtshato waphinda watshata ngolu hlobo, lunefuthe ebantwaneni?